Today was nice.

I lounged around with Sarah all day. She met my great grandma and my Aunt.

My grandma’s this really old fashioned Italian lady. And I’m sure she’s not used to seeing many dykes, if she’s even seen any at all. She asked Sarah if she was a boy or a girl. I was so embarassed, but she handled it completely well. She said she was used to it. And she wasn’t offended. My grandma told her she was beautiful, and she shouldn’t cover her face. (if you’ve seen any pictures of her I’ve posted on here, her hair practically covers her face). I completely agree. She’s beautiful. She has a beautiful soul as well.

We cooked with my mama. Then played some rock band. She told me i had a pretty singing voice. That’s what’s different about her. She appreciates the little things, and she acknowledges them, and complements me. It makes me feel good, like she actually cares. My ex never did that.

She really fits in with my family. My mom loves her, when she’s in a good mood. And her and my little brother get along so well. Like I thought he’d never be able to let go of my ex. But Sarah and Braedon are so cute when they play together. My sister even talks to me when Sarah’s around. And before her, my sister and my relationship was non existant.

We watched the super bowl together. I’m a pats fan, she likes the giants. I beat her up a little bit when she made rude remarks. She deserves to get her butt bitten once in a while ;p

Overall, I have butterflies. I don’t think I could ever be so attached to someone. I see her every day. After every period at school, then from 2 to 8. She stays over the whole weekend, every week, and I’m not sick of her. I don’t want to be either. I hope I don’t. I really hope I don’t push myself away from her.

Sometimes I think about my ex. Not sexually, or like I miss that person or anything. I just.. I just wonder how my ex is doing sometimes. I don’t know.

I’m just really happy with where I am right now. I’m just scared that this won’t be a permanent state. I never really am happy, ever. But I also focus on the negative too much, and I haven’t really been doing so as much with this relationship.

Everything with Sarah just feels so right. So comfortable. So natural.